First off, pardon me if I come off a bit grandiose for what I am about to post. I wish to share what I discovered, just today, about my bass playing.What I discovered is that I have made much more progress than I give myself credit for. I kept pinning the beginner tag on me, unaware of how far I’d really come. Once again in my life, it boiled down to selling myself short.
However, that changed today when I performed my assignment for my mentor/teacher. I was a mixed bag of nerves and sheer confidence all at once. I was nervous, yet I was so proud of what I was going to perform, I knew it would go over well. Sure enough, it did go over well… very well!
David told me I have come a long way! Because I love and trust David, I know he means it, and I don’t bother to deny that he’s right!
I really have come a long way since August of 2015. I have more skill and confidence than ever. I feel free to explore what kinds of music I want to play or create. I’m not saying that I’ve arrived, but I do accknowledge just how far I’ve journeyed and I promise the universe and myself to try stop selling myself short. If I can play like I did today in front of David and not freak out, I think I could play in front of almost anyone. It has taken a long time to see myself with this much confidence and self assurance. It feels strange, but good. Strange because the negative self talk is beginning to diminish and be replaced by a sense of belief in myself!
I finallky found something that I can tell myself that I am good at, I will be great at and both believe and mean it! My passion for playing bass has begun to flow freely and I get immense joy knowing I can finally let music flow through me.
