Hmm, some Youtube commenters!

*LANGUAGE WARNING!*

I’m about to go off!This is just something I need to talk about! My question is this; why are some people assholes?

I say this because of an episode of Janek Gwizdalas podcast I watched on Youtube. In it he was discussing how people were accusing him of making a cash grab, so to speak, by working with a small company to design a bass. He said that a lot of people who commented on a previous video claimed he was doing it for the money. 

Janek swears it’s not the money, but for the music that he is doing this. I believe him. 

Unless these folks can play at the same level he does, unless they work as hard as he does and have released as much material as he has, they need to sit down and shut up!

I only know Janek Gwizdala from his videos and now his music! He seems like a genuinely cool person and very real. So, what the hell is wrong with people that they have to get all pissy and attribute this “experiment” as he calls it, to a money making thing? Anyway, I can’t speak for the man, so I’ll let him do it himself!

At this point in the journey; a revelation!

First off, pardon me if I come off a bit grandiose for what I am about to post. I wish to share what I discovered, just today, about my bass playing.What I discovered is that I have made much more progress than I give myself credit for. I kept pinning the beginner tag on me, unaware of how far I’d really come. Once again in my life, it boiled down to selling myself short. 

However, that changed today when I performed my assignment for my mentor/teacher. I was a mixed bag of nerves and sheer confidence all at once. I was nervous, yet I was so proud of what I was going to perform, I knew it would go over well. Sure enough, it did go over well… very well!

David told me I have come a long way! Because I love and trust David, I know he means it, and I don’t bother to deny that he’s right!

I really have come a long way since August of 2015. I have more skill and confidence than ever. I feel free to explore what kinds of music I want to play or create. I’m not saying that I’ve arrived, but I do accknowledge just how far I’ve journeyed and I promise the universe and myself to try stop selling myself short. If I can play like I did today in front of David and not freak out, I think I could play in front of almost anyone. It has taken a long time to see myself with this much confidence and self assurance. It feels strange, but good. Strange because the negative self talk is beginning to diminish and be replaced by a sense of belief in myself! 

I finallky found something that I can tell myself that I am good at, I will be great at and both believe and mean it! My passion for playing bass has begun to flow freely and I get immense joy knowing I can finally let music flow through me.

A long, strange trip with changes!

Well, hello there! I’m back and trying this blog thing again! I didn’t fall off the face of the earth, but I did move to another part of it! As most of you know, I lost my darling Donna on October 27, 2023. Not being able to afford single life in San Francisco and thanks to a generous offer from two of my very best friends, I moved to Roseburg, Oregon on April 29, 2024. Here it is, eight months later and life has changed for the better. Now that I’m not blanketed in Donnas depression, and this is observation and not complaint, I have found the aspiring musician fully waking up and becoming an actual musician.. more or less. 

Anyway, I am focused on my bass playing journey, and have my best friend and Mentor, David Russell to help and guide me. 

Currently, due to circumstances best left unexplained, I am temporarily playing an Ibanez seven string bass. No, you didn’t see or hear that wrong! I said seven strings! Crazy as it may sound, I love it!

This means I have narrowed my social media focus to me as a bass playing musician and relinquishing the reiki and sound healing to a back burner. Oh,, hang on, the sound healing is a seperate story for another post. However, I digress. Below I will link to my various platforms on social media for anyone interested in following my journey!My Facebook page: 

Catch me on Youtube!

Here I am on Instagram!

Follow my Threads!

Well, that’s it for now! If I decide to delete my twitter and totally migrate to something like blue sky, I’ll let you know! Thanks for reading this far and joining, or rejoining the journey!